The Resulting Panic

I had a full 24 hours of restfulness before the panic sank in. What was I thinking? I hadn't been training, save for some 35 mile rides a couple of times a week. I had to be ready for an average of 60 a day for 59 days.

I didn't know how I'd get my bike there and reached out to my FB bike friends who offered good advice. I contemplated taking it with me on the plane but ultimately decided to ship it as I have a back-up bike to continue training with. And 5 weeks to bump up the training.

And so began the cycle of obsession, worry, and despair as anxiety took over. I didn't sleep well for 2 weeks. I made lists. I struggled with self doubt. I found it hard to think of anything but the trip. In short, I was making myself crazy.

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