The last week of the tour was anticlimactic. No more mountain passes. No more mountains period. No deserts, no heat, no more 80 mile days. Just a few more days of flat cruising. What there were were accolades about what an incredible feat this was, and that was true. It was a big deal physically. But that wasn't the part that was the most challenging for me. I knew from mid-September that my body was ready. I knew I could do the miles, so long as speed was not a factor. (That said, I worried about coming in as the caboose, long after everyone else had arrived.) I could get up any hill put in front of me even if I had to walk (I didn’t!). I knew I could ride in hot weather and in cold, in wind and in fog, on days when I was having fun and on days when things sucked. The physical aspect was the easy part. I have struggled for as long as I can remember with self-doubt and a fear of failure. I found the decision making tortuous. I agonized over the gear choices, worrying about “being